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  MAMA DAWN Posted 900 days ago
  

  HEY PRETTY BOY, MAMA LOVES YOU AND MISSES YOU SO MUCH BABY. WISH YOU WERE HERE W/ ME, BUT I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT YOU ARE BETTER OFF AND NOT SUFFERING ANY KINDA PAIN. BABY, PLEASE TAKE MY PAIN AWAY, PLEASE COME TO ME IN MY DREAMS OR ANYWHERE, SO THAT I CAN KNOW THAT YOUR OK. I'M SORRY BABY THAT I WASN'T ABLE TO SEE THAT YOU WERE SUFFERING. IF I COULD TURN BAC THE HANDS OF TIME AND FIX PRETTY BOY YOU KNOW I WOULD. I TALK TO YOU ALL THE TIME, DO YOU HEAR ME BABY? PLEASE DON'T THINK MAMA HAS LEFT YOU BEHIND, B/C I HAVEN'T. PLEASE TELL GOD TO HURRY UP AND LET ME SERVE MY PURPOSE HERE SO THAT I CAN BE W/ YOU, I HATE THIS LIFE JOHN-DUSTIN. DON'T YOU KNOW YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME, AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NOTHING BUT EMPTYNESS AND ALONENESS. I LOVE YOU WEE-MAN AND NEED YOU LIKE YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. DO YOU FEEL MY PAIN AND ACHE'S INSIDE AND ALL THE SADDNESS IN THE WORLD. JOHN-DUSTIN BABY, YOU ARE SO VERY SPECIAL TO ME SWEETHEART, WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME HERE ALL ALONE AND SO SAD. HAVEN'T I BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH SON, WHY DID YOU ADD TO IT AND MAKE IT WORSE? WELL, I DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT ALL THAT OTHER ANYMORE, JUST YOU. EVERYWHERE I GO OR ANYTHING I DO, I THINK OH ME AND JOHN-DUSTIN WENT THERE OR HE WAS W/ ME WHEN I DID THAT. IT FEELS LIKE YOUR JUST GONE SOMEWHERE AND YOU'LL BE BACK. BUT YOU WON'T BE WILL YOU?



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  MAMA DAWN Posted 893 days ago
  

  HEY BABY! I'M SORRY I GOT SO MAD AT YOU LAST NIGHT, BUT BABY I JUST MISS YOU SO MUCH AND NEED YOU. JOHN-DUSTIN WHAT AM I GONNA DO W/OUT YOU, HOW AM I GONNA MAKE IT? JOHN-DUSTIN WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME? THIS STUFF REALLY HURTS SON, I WISH YOU COULD FEEL MY PAIN, THEN MAYBE YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT I'M GOING THRU, NOTHING IS HELPING, ONLY YOU CAN HELP ME BABY, MAMA LOVES YOU JOHN-DUSTIN DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT. WHAT YOU DID WAS SELFISH AND NO NEED IN IT. BABY, YOUR LIFE WAS NOT THAT BAD,I JUST DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN AND LOOK WHAT I MADE YOU DO. I AM SO SORRY, PLEASE KNOW THAT, AND YES I AM PAYING FOR IT EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY, IT HASN'T GOTT'N EASIER YET AND EVERYONE SAYS IT WANT.
  JOHN-DUSTIN CAN YOU HEAR ME? I LOVE YOU SON, MORE THAN YOU KNOW. BABY, PLEASE TAKE MY ACHES AND PAINS AWAY.
  MAMA LOVES YOU PRETTYBOY!!



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  Granny Posted 876 days ago
  

  John Dustin loved the beach. Every time we went he wanted to be in the water first thing
  in the morning and stay the day. I remember the first time I took him to the
  beach it was to Gulf Shores with Nana, Dawn, Evie, and myself. He was amazed at the "big water" and was showed no fear. He was only about two or three and we had to watch him every minute.
  
  The second time we went to the beach was camping at Fort Pickens. Every day we would load up our beach gear and head for a day at the beach. We build castles with moats and buried each other. John Dustin built an elaborate tunnel system under the sand. I remember him digging a tunnel and being buried up to his shoulder trying to get more sand out. I was helping him from the other side. John Dustin didn't realize how close I was to meeting his tunnel. As I broke through, I grabbed his hand. He jumped so high, his whole system caved in. He thought a sea creature had gotten him. We laughed until we cried. I guess he was about seven or eight then.
  
  On the way home, we stopped at a sovenior shop in Pensacola Beach to buy something for his dad and grandparents. We must have stayed in there for an hour while John Dustin shopped for the perfect gift. He bought a ship made of shells for his grandfather and was so proud of it. He gazed at it all the way home.
  
  We went back to Fort Pickens a couple of years later and took our bikes. We rode them everywhere. To the Fort, to all the structures built by the military, to the store. It was great fun. John Dustin tried to ride his bike through the sand to the water which, of course, didn't work. He fell over sideways much like Arte Johnson riding his tricycle in Laugh-In. Evie and I had great fun watching him struggle to get up from the sand with a bike on top of him. Oh and it was on this camping trip that it rained all one day and we were stuck in the tent. We told stories, read books, joked and laughed ourselves crazy. Finally, tent-hysteria set in. We ran for the car and took off to the ice cream store. I can't remember if it was Evie or John Dustin who got the blue ice cream, but when it was over with those kids were blue. Their mouths were blue, their teeth were blue, their hands were blue, the table was blue. But at least we were out of the tent.
  
  Another time we went to Gulf Shores with all the Barfield clan. Josh and his friend had brought skim boards and spent loads of time skimming along the sand. John Dustin and I went shopping to buy him one. I don't think he realized how difficult it would be learning how to skim. After a few embarrassing tries, he took his board and went off down the beach. When he returned, he was an expert. He would stand away from the water with the skimboard and wait for a wave. As it came in, he would runs towards the water, drop his board on the water when it was going back out and ride the wave out. He also rode it like a skateboard atop the sand as the water went out. He had great fun with Josh, Rick, and the skimboards.
  
  These are some of the many wonderful memories of John Dustin. I hope others will post their memories here in tribute to him and the time we shared with him.



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  MAMA DAWN Posted 639 days ago
  

  HEY BUDDY! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ARE GONE. IT'S BEEN 10 MTHS NOW AND IT STILL DOESN'T SEEM REAL AT ALL; IT'S LIKE YOUR JUST SOMEWHERE ELSE AND YOU'LL BE HOME LATER.
  JOHN-DUSTIN, I WILL NEVER GET OVER THIS, MUCH LESS FORGET YOU. YOUR ALWAYS IN MY HEART. YOU TOOK MY HEART AND SOUL WHEN YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE, YOU LEFT ME ALL ALONE. HEY, BUT I STILL LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH. I JUST CAN'T WAIT TIL THE DAY I'M WITH YOU AGAIN. I LOVE YOU WEE-MAN I LOVE YOU!



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  beth birdsong Posted 313 days ago
  

  i love you john dustin!!!
  you are in my heart and in my mind everyday!
  i think about you everyday!

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